Hey you! STALKER!

here i am again.

2011-09-12T07:41:00.004+08:00

today is the last week of my sem break.

honestly i haven't been fulfilling my plan of doing something productive every day during this hols.. i did take my undang(driving)test, passed it, sat through the torturous 6 hours of practical which all i've done was slept on the road, went through the thrift shops in Chowkit, worked part-time for a day....and that's all i can remember. i did update myself on allkpop,kdramas and lookbook...and have been sleeping for 24/7 since. such loser-ish lifestyle which i can't believe i'm even going through! actually the main problem here is..i'm THISSSSSSSSSSSSS close to bankruptcy. going out, yamcha, travelling...all of these NEED money which i don't have at the moment! at first i planned to go to Krabi and then...it was canceled cuz i had to choose between my driving license or travelling. such luck! now all of the money i have is for THEEEEEE driving license and i don't even think it's enough.=( fml!

i've never thought of blogging...AGAIN after coming back from Aussie, starting college and all that but i've decided to after listening to the OH-SO-AWESOME song by Beyonce, 'I Was Here'. i was greatly inspired by the lyrics and decided i HAD to do something about my life and not...try and kill time by sleeping.=.=

Beyonce's newest album '4' is VERY SUPER AWESOMELY GOOD!!!! i know she's superrr damn good usually but this album is just..something. hell! i'm even tempted to buy her album which i know will cost a lot! i've researched on her and i found out that she may be a diva on stage but she's such a GREAT person and role model for us females, seriously. i truly wish her the best for her marriage with Jay-Z(they fit each other SO WELL!! i adore this power couple!) and her upcoming baby.

i've just watched 'The Nanny Diaries' on pps starring Scarlett Johansson and Chris Evans. i didn't think it would be good but it was! the message it was trying to get through is that..even if those rich people look like they have everything, they don't. money can't buy love or happiness. it may seem like an overused message in movies but this one was delivered well, and it really applied to my current lack of money situation. sometimes i want to try to be contented but then i do not want to stay at one spot and stop advancing when i know i can if i tried..somehow. i really like this quote now

Reach for the moon so even if you fall,you'll land among the stars.

i guess i'll never be contented if i'm not the best. btw Scarlett Johansson is becoming one of my favourite actress ever! i used to think that she couldn't act but was there for looks only.. my!! how wrong was i!! i googled and she's a golden globe winner!!O.O see?! if she can be so pretty, so talented in acting and successful in her job, so rich..why can't i?! the same goes to Beyonce! and Chris Evansssssss...ahhh! he's soooo hot!!!!=P i'm sorta regretting why i didn't watch Captain America then. haha!

i'm actually excited to get my exam results on the 21st. hahaha!! i REALLY worked hard for it this time and i can't wait to see how i score! and this coming sem, i'm planning to take Gym as my co-curriculum subject so you can expect to see a fitter and slimmer Airel!=D

i REALLY want to cheongk. i think i'll go alone this week and sing my heart out. who cares that i'm saving?! i really want to sing and drink chatime!!!!

so IT'S HER BIRTHDAY TODAYYY!

2011-03-26T01:10:00.006+08:00

okay i have to make this quick! i NEED to sleep now or else i'll be moody tomorrow/today at the interview. NOOOOOOOOO! AIREL NEEDS TO SMILE!=)

SO HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!! honestly i don't really have the feel compared to last year cuz..i have an important interview coming up and...i'm not anticipating anything this year. hmmmmmmmm!=( my gang of friends have flown to different countries to study and if i buy a cake for myself(WHICH IS SUPER PATHETIC), i can't even finish it. LOL. i was actually thinking of getting like a WHOLE, FULL, ROUND cake from secret recipe BUTTTTT every slice is of different flavour. HAHA! COOLL OR NOT?!

BUT THEN I'LL BE A FATASS IF I CAN ACTUALLY FINISH THE WHOLE CAKE. LOL.

i've just watched kylin's birthday vid for me and err..HAHAHAHAA IT WAS AWKWARD AT TIMES! JUST LIKE HOW WE ARE! LOOOOOOL! but it was SUPER touching la, i TOTALLY didn't expect anything. (BUT WHERE THE HELL IS WONG JYYI'S CALL?!!=.=)

OH YEAH. if you've noticed, i errr...didn't blog yesterday. *smiles guiltily* i was REAAAALLY busy yesterday, i went back to school to sort out all the stuff(AND FINALLY I'VE FINISHED EVERYTHING!!! BLAAAAAAAAAH!) and then i had to key in my co curriculum activities in the school's website. it took me a LOOOOOOONG TIME AND GAVE ME A BIG HEADACHE!!! OMGGGG this is the 1st time i'm hating myself for having so many awards/medals. grrrrrrrr. later on i went to play badminton with my juniors after like, 5 MONTHS?!!!!!!!! LIKE WTH! THAT'S LIKE HALF A YEAR! surprisingly i could play as well(HAHA ALMOST LAAA) as last time. thank God!

so i started to pack my stuff last night(or early morning LOL) AND WTH I REALIZED 20KG IS ACTUALLY NOT MUCH AT ALL!!!!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY! and then like, it's autumn and i've never experienced it before so i don't know what to wear? so i packed like, quite a lot of clothes. and then i have to pack coco and kylin's stuff.....so i just added an extra 5kg this morning to make it 25kg. hopefully it's enough!

my mom and i went to TARC(tunku abdul rahman college) in the afternoon to register. it's...not my 1st choice as it's a CHINESE SPEAKING SCHOOL...like... AGAIN. SIGHHHHHHHHH! but the fees are like, REAAAALLY CHEAP and it's pretty reputable. i think they'll offer me a place there cuz of my spm results and sports achievements. it's like, SUPERRR FAR away from my house tho. so if i really went there, i would have to stay in the hostel or something. so far my college choices are: MAS(HAHAHAHAHA!) > Matriculation > Taylor's > Segi > KBU > Stamford > TARC > Form 6. so let's see if i can get The star and the sun scholarships or not!

after that i went to buy Socks( HAHAHAHAHAHA MY BRO'S CAT IN AUS! ACTUALLY THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS WHY I'M SO EXCITED TO GO THERE! I BET THE 1ST PROFILE PIC OF ME THERE IS WITH SOCKS!=D) toy which was a mouse on a sting thingy and some cat junk food. LOOOOL! WHAT IS THIS?!! ME SPOILING MY BRO'S...CAT?!!! SO SO WEIRD!

SOCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(IT'S A HE!) SO NOW YOU KNOW WHY HE IS CALLED SOCKS?=D

apparently he does this when he wants to go out. SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

SLEEPING WHILE BEING WRAPPED IN A BLANKET! DOUBLE CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

BATMAN SOCKS. LOOOOOOOOOOL!!

SOCKS' FRIEND!

okay i'll be going to chili's later in the evening to have dinner with my colleagues AND TRY OUT THE TOP SHELF STRAWBERRY!=D YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I'M 18 AND LEGAL!!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!

LASTLY, WISH ME LOTS OF LUCK FOR MY MAS INTERVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* no one look per day pic today! need to sleep!

so she takes her spm results

2011-03-24T00:33:00.008+08:00

firstly, i'm SUPER PISSED at myself for forgetting my password for kc's eclass! ARGHHHHHHHH! during this kind of situation where i'm DESPERATE to go to the eclass website and do some scholarship testimonial procedure is when i realize how some things that may SEEM unimportant at the time become SO important now. LIKE MY PASSWORD. HOW CAN I FORGET IT?!!!!!! and WTF THE STUPID KC WEBSITE'S 'CLICK HERE IF U FORGOT YOUR PASSWORD' BUTTON FAILS ME! EFFFFFF YOUUUUU!

time is of the essence now cuz i'll be flying off on sunday and i NEED to complete all my applications before then, etc: 1) The star education fund scholarship 2) The sun scholarship 3) Mas interview DAMM! all the stuff they need gives me a headache! and more annoying is that kc is SUPER strict so i HAVE to follow each and every procedure to do something, like the reference letter and testimonials! and i have to wait for a few days if there are a lot of stuff to certify WHICH I DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH TIME!

hopefully i can solve my password problem and finish up what i need to do when i go back to school tomorrow. YES, AGAIN. another stick that is stuck in my ass is that my mas kebaya that i borrowed IS SO TIGHT!!!!!! OMG MAN. hopefully the person who lent me will allow me to alter it a bit. otherwise I'M DEAD MEAT.

SO. SPM RESULTS CAME OUT TODAY. i got 7a's. i was happy with my results UNTIL i saw how the others did, which was SUPER GOOD. if everyone else got 6,7,8 a's then i'll be pleased with my results BUT the others got 8,9,10a's. so i'm like WHAT THE FUCK. i do know there's no one else to blame but myself but i can't help but feel disappointed. PERFECTIONIST AND KIASU MAHHHH! still, i'm happy that i didn't fail chinese(LOL B!) and physics(A FREAKING B+?!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!) which i knew i wrote rubbish for the electricity calculation part. and A for sejarah! WOW! i know i wrote a lot of random stuff. haha! AND A FOR ADD MATHS?!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA AWESOME! MY HARD WORK PAID OFF! all those crazy last minute maths training after trials....tsk tsk tsk.

i gave Jyyi her present today and this is it!

Jyyi has 'BEST' and i have 'FRIENDS'! (actually BEST has a better cut pic than FRIENDS so i gave Jyyi that. HAHA!)

our pics are similar!=)

CUTE OR NOTTTTTTTT?!!!=D

i have to say i didn't know what to give you, Jyyi for your birthday present cuz..well you have everything! so i was looking, AND LOOKING for the PERFECT(more likely something that gives me THE FEEL) gift for you but i couldn't find it! i knew i wanted something more or less like this but i just couldn't find it! that's why i'm like, 4 months late. HAHA SORRRRRRY! i don't want to give you something even i am not proud of.=) so when i came across this pair of friendship necklace which is SOOOO CUTE AND SWEETTTTTTTTT and CAN PUT OUR PICS IN IT, I IMMEDIATELY BOUGHT IT!=D putting our pics in was A HUGE TASK cuz i couldn't seem to find pics that have small heads. HAHAHA! SO I'M REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY SUPER GLAD YOU LIKED IT!=)

i went to a famous yong tau foo place in imbi with my chili colleagues, Emily and Johnny after that. it was REAAAALLY yummy! we went karaoke first and I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE WHO CAN SING BETTER THAN ME!=D HAHAHAHAHA EMILY I THINK YOUR SINGING IS STILL AWESOME LAH. HAHAHAHA! for those who are curious, emily's a leo and i'm an aries. HAHHHAHA! that explains our chemistry and non-awkwardness together!=D

trying to camwhore while drinking coconut water. LOL!

EMILYYYYYYYYY with her shades on!

JOHNNY's my trainer in chili's btw. HAHA! yes he's from myammar and he has a masters in some micro(living creature) thing. haha!

hmmmmm, i think i need to start packing.

DAY 3!

i like this look too! very elegant looking!

so she finally took a pretty passport pic

2011-03-22T21:34:00.007+08:00

just got back from chowkit agaaaaaaaainnn and wth WHY WAS IT RAINING TODAY?!! blooody hellllll! (i would appreciate it if you guys commented in my chatbox =D) HAHAHA!

i took a passport pic for the mas interview and OMGNESS I. LOOKED. PRETTY! FOR ONCE. of course it was with the help of makeup! HAHAHA! let me give you a tip i learned by watching some yt vid, wear thick makeup! HAHA! SERIOUSLY!

sooooooooooooooo! here it is!

AND. DUM DUM DUM! SPM RESULTS ARE OUT TOMORROWWWWWW! however i'm like, unfeeling. i have no idea why? i guess it doesn't make a difference if it turns out good or bad. i can still go for airline interviews, study hospitality/tourism management.. just without the scholarship. but i'm pretty hopeful cuz my co-curriculum achievements are WOW. HAHAAHAHAHAHA! (okay i was SO zilian thereeeee!=P) but i do want to get good results, you know? so that there's something to be proud of.(or not lose face HAHA)

i FINALLLLLY finished my long due birthday present for JYYIIIIIIII<3! i really,REALLY hope she likes it cuz i gave her a lousy one(actually i can't remember) last year. i've looked for this THING for AGESSSSS and it was really difficult putting the pic in.=D HAHAHA JYYI IF YOU'RE READING I HOPE YOU LIKE IT.=)

DAY 2!

i like this look best!=) maybe i'll dye my hair this colour for the next time.

and so she makes a comeback with a new background

2011-03-22T00:23:00.014+08:00

i shall start off with a ALOOOOOOOOHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
'WELCOME BACK, AIREL!!!!!!!!!!!!!' (yes you are supposed to repeat after me)

okay i swear i WILL blog this time. not like all those other times where my blog went into hibernation...errrr..TEEHEE! I WILL CONTINUE THIS TIME SO DO MAKE SOME TIME TO VISIT MY POOR LITTLE BLOG IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BLOGOSPHERE!=D (yes i am a little depressed at the fact that my fb posts have been receiving so little likes and comments lately...HMMMMPHHHHHHHH?!) oh well, maybe it's because i haven't been posting as much as before this month..in fact it was VERY LITTLE. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! GOOD NEWS! airel has taken a loooooong leave from work and has tons of time to go online now!=D so you won't be seeing my 'allkpop 10000 likes' on your top feed for awhile. i hope?=P HAHAHA!

SO. i went to chowkit today hoping that it won't rain as usual..and it didn't! i tried my luck this time in finding THE STREET which kylin told me the other time. apparently THE STREET sells 2ndhand clothes and cheap shoes WHICH I COULDN'T FIND. GRRRRRR. i walked like some paranoid (WE'RE IN A RED LIGHT DISTRICT, PEOPLE!) idiot AGAIN (went there the last time and didn't accomplish ANYTHING)and GUESS WHAT I FOUND IN ONE OF THE BACK ALLEYS!

TADA! GUESS HOW MUCH IT IS?!! (thank you, horrible lighting for making it so ugly)

(COME OM DON'T JUST SCROLL DOWN! GUESS!)

HAHAHA! IT WAS AN AMAZING WONDERFUL OMGNESS PRICE OF RM11.90!
(YES SAY OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!)

it was the last pair and coincidentally i was looking for a shoe/ballets that is about the same colour as my skin and there it was! GOD LOVES ME!

i also went to my usual 2ndhand place and bought coco some dryfit shirts. GUESS WHAT?!! 4 FOR RM10!! CHEAPSKATE AIREL LOVES IT!!!!!! and it's branded! Mizuno, Prince and Santa Barbara Polo and Racquet Club! buttttttttt! don't think everything was branded and nice! you have to go treasure hunting! something i LOVE doing! the sense of accomplishment after that is very addictive, i would say.

it's funny that 2ndhand goods are fine with me..i guess i'm the type of person who has the mentality that 'i don't care if it's cheap,expensive,or 2ndhand, if i like it, i'm good!' plus i'm not gonna use my HARD EARNED MONEY on (i think) overpriced stuff. NAH.

i have to go there tomorrow too. since my bro sent me a late email saying he wants jeans. and did i mention the jeans there are selling for 3/4 for rm10?!! IKRRRR! tho you can't try it on..no fitting room la! so it's a matter of chance! but you can always take the measurements.

later on i sat the monorail to sungai wang to find high tops which i have been searching since FOREVER! like, SERIOUSLY! i've been looking for high tops for about..2 years now! so i went through all those back lanes in sg wang(i tell you, do browse through the back lanes cuz there are loads of stuff you're missing out) and i found IT!

NICEEEEEEEEEEE?

after trying it on, i felt that the style was nice, but the colour made me feel like i came from outer space but....aren't high tops meant to be unique? something that stands out in your outfit? so i didn't choose the white one cuz..you know! gets dirty easily! and i know for a fact that even one small smudge can ruin the whole effect. andddd i bought it! rm89.90 and comes with 6 pairs of socks!=D WHAT A DEAL! thank God it wasn't over rm100 cuz i know that when i like something(the FEEL,people!), i will buy it no matter what the price is.

i'm currently finding a kebaya to wear for the mas interview on sat. (OMGNESSSSS!!! AIREL'S FINALLY MAKING HER MOVE!) the kebayas in chowkit were at least rm80 so i decided to borrow one. since, i'm not gonna wear it often. why buy one? but, the kebaya is CRUCIAL for my outcome of my interview cuz you know how looks play an important role for air stewardess. no? it HAS TO BE tight fitting. so i guess i'll post a pic of myself wearing it later on? DID I MENTION THAT YOU HAVE TO BE AT LEAST 18 ON THE INTERVIEW DATE AND MY BIRTHDAY IS ON SAT! OMGGGGGGGG! FATED?=D

i also need to take a new passport pic of myself..(for the mas interview!) so i need to look GREAT and PRETTY. FOR THE 1ST TIME IN A PASSPORT PIC. WISH ME LUCK. and i will post the pic later on.

oh yeah i decided to open a travel blog about my trip to aus later on this week but i haven't decided on using Travelbuddy or this. so stay tuned! i've ALSO decided to BLOG EVERY DAY! WOOOOHOOO! ARE YOU HAPPY?!=D i do realize that my standard of english has dropped so i have to do something about it = blog! =D

i'm starting a 'one look per day' campaign so i'll be posting pics of me with...well, you guys see for yourselves.

DAY ONE!

THE BLONDE LOOK!

I take that back.

2010-06-13T00:50:00.003+08:00

okay i take that back, Lea's voice is so so so powerful!!!!!!!!!! but i still don't really like it because it's high pitched. and cory sounds much better live, seriously. i just watched the live performance of Don's stop believin and Somebody to love and OMGGGGG! GREAAAAAT VOCALS! the best part of this drama is the producers used 'new' people, people who aren't like, established singers.. for example cory? but i guess you can count lea out because she was a broadway singer all her life.

ANDDDDDD i read something quite disturbing. apparently lea went out with cory and matthew(glee club teacher!) before! and even worse, slept with them! OMGG RIGHT?!! they're gossips so you'll never know if they're true or not. BUT STILL! it sorta made my rating of her go dowwwwwwwn. but after dressing up she looks hot lah. STILL, she looks like a guy. sorry.

i realized something really interesting. my conclusion is a country which has a national anthem of high singing difficulty has more good singers. seriously! that's why malaysia doesn't reaaaaly have good singers. you know why? because the national anthem HAS to be sung every week right? you know..school assembly? so if you sing THAT hard of a song every week, your singing skills will DEFINITELY be good. well, practice makes perfect right? btw! i was watching some chinese talent show on 8tv just now and there was a performance by Karen Kong(heard of her? she's a malaysian singer) and Justin Lo. and guess what? they sang DON'T STOP BELIEVIN. BUTTTTTTTTT! they sang well. seriously. i didn't know Karen was such a good singer! she hit all those high notes perfectly! not bad not bad.

WOOTSSS! SOUTH KOREA WON OVER GREECE!!!!!! 2-0! DAE HAN MIN GUK! CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP!
goals scored by the 2 JS. (WOW Junsu anyone?) - Park Jisung and Lee Jungsu. HAHAHAAA! everyone was saying they played brilliantly! YEAHHH! and the funny part is, all the kpop celebs were ALSO watching the match! (proven by twitter and allkpop!) WHOAAA! i guess south korea is really a football fanatic country.

BACK since a loooooooooog time.

2010-06-12T00:08:00.004+08:00

some guy just commented i am rude to everyone..? honestly, is that true? i'm curious.

today's the ?th day of the hols and i STILL have no FEEL to do anything, especially homework and studying. been online fbing, watching glee, reading fanfics, listening to music.. i don't REAAALLY think i've been wasting my time..just not on the things that are important for now, like something that starts with S ends with M. yeah, guess that. all of a sudden, i feel that, you know, so what if you do get great results in spm? i've had friends that scored over 10a's and didn't even get the Jpa scholarship. hah. not to mention uni students who studied overseas to only come back, doing worse off than some people that didn't even go into uni. you know, you don't have to just study well in order to get a great future. not for everybody. that's why my motto for this year is not to study like a crazy studyholic just to get those few a's in spm. when people ask me what i did in high school, i don't want to tell people that all i did was study study study. i want to say that, you know what? i participated in this and that.. organized a haunted house, participated in the interclass bb and vb competition, competed in sports competition, sang for sketch, joined a band..well, you only get to live once. do something you like! try out something you want to do but never had the guts to do! cut your long hair into short hair!(which i did and never regretted an inch!), do something crazy! it's the last year of high school after all! i bet you wouldn't want to try out those things when you're working.

enough of all these kind of talk. glee has been AMAZINGGGG! and one of the reasons i said i didn't waste time not studying instead. watching glee has been inspiring, really. seeing the characters coping with peer pressure, teen pregnancy and of course, my favourite of all, singing. their covers are AMAZINGGG!!!!! i just liked how they performed every song and all that stage performing thing. and if you didn't know, i just LOVE anything to do with stage performing, especially singing.=) i didn't like the leads at first, you know..rachael(lea micheal) and finn( cory i think?). i found rachael's voice not to my liking. too high pitched and not enough power. yeah i'm a sucker for low pitched singers(like me!=DD) and if you need another example, Beyonce. and for finn..not handsome. but i guess at the end, he grew on me. he's okay lah.=) while i still think rachael...although she has some great singing chops, she looks too manly lahhh. sorry. so in conclusion, glee was great because it wasn't those gossip girls drama which focus on all the wrong things like sex, TOO much romance, status and just..DRAMA. UGH. plus, i didn't actually had a crush on the lead actor in the end(HAHAHAHAA i do for most dramas) but STILL LOVED glee to bits! it really taught me a lot of things the schoolbooks aren't able to.

my favourite covers: Don't stop believin, Keep holding on, No air, Taking chances, Bad romance, Halo mashup and It's my life mashup.

i don't know why but i've been eating like CRAZY these few days..and i'm not exercising. OMGGG. oh maybeeeee, time just flies past and i just feel like i'm eating constantly. hmmmm. world cup just started TODAYYYY and Rtm is broadcasting it. WOW, big surprise there.

i actually planned a badminton club outing during the hols but i guess everybody couldn't make it because of the exams.. and parents. siiiiiigh. i guess we'll go after the spm yeah?

AIREL IS DAMM EXCITED ABOUT BAND CAMP AND SKETCH!!!!!!!!!!!

there i've said it. about band camp, i actually asked Pearl if i could join because we're talking about a BAND people! at first it was just for the guitar club only but she said there's not enough singers so she said yes!=) CAN'T WAIT! guitar club formed a band because there's this concert in confucian high school in august that asked them to perform. so here we are! WHEEEE! THE BEST PART IS we're actually going to a STUDIO to practice!! OMGGGGGG YEAHHHHHHHH! MY DREAM CAME TRUEEEEEEEE!

about sketch, it's actually an activity or competition held during the english month. we're supposed to dance, sing and act at the same time. something like GLEEEEEE! so my part is to sing back stage. YEAHHHH YOU SAW THAT RIGHT! SOOOO EXCITED!!! if you thought what i said was weird then get ready to be blown away!=DD i REALLY REALLY want to tell you what we're gonna do BUTTT sorry! i'm not about to give away the element of surprise!XDD just..take note that we'll be singing some real cool songs and, i'll give them a 9/10 level of difficulty.=)

i dunno why but i just realized my throat is prone to phlegm. seriously. and that causes me to not be at my element in singing. damm you! good thing i know a cuppa of hot, chinese tea helps it. and warm honey too.

sigh. so many things have happened for the past few months and i just can't blog about everyone of them. so, till then.

2010-02-19T01:23:00.006+08:00

me trying to get a pic of myself with the sea!

beautiful beach! but dirty seawater!

CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW!

*the rest of the pics are in my fb account!
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I'M BACK FROM PENANG!

how's everyone been going through the CNY holidays?=) for you who didn't know, i went to Penang(with my mom of course!) for a 4 days 3 nights trip! short holiday i know, but very enjoyable and relaxing!

i stayed in my mom's friend's condo in Batu Feringgi. in the 2nd day, i went touring by myself!(COOLNESS AIREL!) around the island's hotspots, from: Spice Garden, Toy Museum, Queen Victoria Clock Tower, Fort Cornwallis, Esplanate?, Penang Peranakan Museum, Little India, Komtar and Perangin Mall! ALL BY MYSELF! AHHHH! i'm so proud of myself! by bus man!

i also visited: Queensbay Mall( which weirdly looks a lot like 1U!), Gurney Plaza, G Hotel, E&O Hotel, Botanical Gardens(LOVED THE PLACE!), Batu Feringgi Night Bazaar, Gurney Drive..did i miss anything? i reaaally wanted to go to the War Museum and Penang Hill but it was on the opposite side of the island!so... yeah.

places which left a deep impression:
1. Penang Peranakan Museum
as you all know, i'm a Nyonya. but sadly as it seems, i don't know ANYTHING about my roots. i'm sorta just a, FAKE nyonya. by name only. i have no idea what Baba and Nyonya culture, food are or anything and everything about it. i know, i'm just, SAD. i've actually been embarrassed when people ask me more about my roots, i've never been proud of being a Nyonya. i used to think, "why can't a be a Cantonese or just, something else?" really, i felt like a loser.
but then i visited this musuem. did you know? in order to REALlY know more about my roots, i PURPOSELY ASKED a guide to give me a tour. as in , ME, ONE PERSON. so after the tour, i REALLY felt SO proud to be a nyonya. you know, somehow i felt so "WOWed!" during the entire tour! it's like, the house, culture and everything is just so beautiful and special! i mean, I FEEL SPECIAL! let the pics speak for itself.

2. Botanical Garden
at first, i didn't really explore it so it was just SO-SO only. THEN, i went to explore those trails that NO ONE goes. like the Japanese Garden. or more like, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE JUNGLE GARDEN.did you know that i really like those trails that are forest-like and very close to nature? i think i like jungle tracking. except for the fact that when you're alone, it can get REAAAAALLY scary. so i went exploring. REALLY. you have to be SO AWARE of your surroundings because you may step on WEIIIIRD LOOKING insects or even walk into a spider web! SCAAARY! YOU KNOW I HATE SPIDERS! so it was scary but it was an adventure nevertheless! i'll NEVER EVER forget this experience. the thrill of it is addictive.

3.Toy Museum
SO FREAKING COOL. you all should check it out! they have all these larger-than-life models of..fictional characters and all! like: Spiderman, JACK SPARROW!(my favourite of all!), Kingkong,Pharoahs,Monster Inc and many more! and they were all much much larger than me! coolness!

i realised i'm an INTROVERT. do you know what it means? don't? google it up. i like exploring alone. just..doing things alone. i feel that's it's more exciting and free. plus, i get to meet hot guys..did i mention that penang has LOADS of hot guys?!!!!! MANY MANY A-MOs! i know, lol at me now.XD STILL! I LOVE INTERACTING WITH A-MOs!=) but during the Botanical exploring adventure, i realised that..maybe sometimes being alone doesn't feel too good. it's like, when you're hurt or lost, nobody's there to save or rescue you. it's sorta..scary to think of it. you'll feel so helpless and just...so lonely.

i came to love this song, Gotta Be Somebody by Nickelback. i know it's an old song but i just REALLY listened to it recently and i found the lyrics very similar to what i'm facing now.

Lyrics | Nickelback lyrics - Gotta Be Somebody lyrics

btw, With All My Heart is just amazing. it made me tear up again.

2010-02-02T20:56:00.004+08:00

baby Changmin looking good to eat these days!XD

VISUAL SHOCK, JAE. STOP DOING THAT. DID YOU HAVEEEE TO DYE YOUR HAIR TO BLOND AGAIN AND LOOK SO FREAKING HOT?!

do you want to know what music i really,REALLY,REALLY like? listen to Rascal Flatts. 2 words. THEY'RE AMAZING. i WOULD buy their album. THAT kind of LIKE. their music is just so real and inspiring. and his voice is just, so soothing.

i'm feeling like my 'huan xiang zheng' a.k.a imagination is getting a LOT out of hand. fanfics man...fanfics. but sometimes, living in an alternate universe seems so much better than living in reality. everything seems so, perfect and trouble-free. The Champagne Gang rocks. did i mention the 2 dreams i had the last 2 nights? total WEIRDNESS. something that would definately come out from a fanfic. still, dreams are better than no dreams huh? in fact, when i dream, which is rarely, i sleep REAALLY well. like a deep sleep...until i got up 10 minutes late this morning. but i definately love dream nights than dreamless nights.

today went alright. i wasn't thinking of wanting to kill myself at the end of the day or going into the usual 'what-the-hell-was-i-thinking' and reseeing the whole scene again and again and again kind of thing. yes i'm talking about the 1st day of co-curriculum. all 73 kids of them. 72 excluding me. how..LITTLE. yes i'm being sarcastic. and about like, 10? didn't come. dunno what the heck were they thinking man. overall, my little speech went alright.the guys weren't being too difficult.. i think, they have even matured a little! *gasp!* yeah no kidding there. they just need some pushing in the right direction.

after thinking through yesterday's karaoke session, i realised i sound good in:

1. Russian Roulette by Rihanna (actually i think i sound good in any song by Rihanna.XD)

2. Bad Romance by Lady Gaga (LOVE HER! THAT SO SUPER AMAZINGGGG PERSON! music, fashion, attitude,makeup, personality..everything about her! she's SO my idol!)

3. Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis ( i mean from the start until the part where she goes all crazy high key.. yeah, just the front part.XD)

- and i TOTALLY COULDN'T REACH that stupid "YEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! IT'S A PARTY IN THE USAAAAAAAAAAAA!" damm nice-to-sing song but SOOO HARD TO SING! damm miley! do you have to be so vocally talented?!

- yes, i love miley's and pixie lott's voice! very unique!

shall be aiming to update daily. i HAVE to improve my writing. is it people getting good at english or me getting sucker at it?

2010-02-02T00:28:00.003+08:00

airel likey!

love the hairstyle! so korean looking!

Kylin!

me and Kylin!

um...Kylin and me?

Jyyi and Kylin!

you know who they are.

Cheongk Kaki!

my future makeup. LOOVE IT!

i HAD to change my beauuuuuutiful layout for my blog because it expired. sigh! so how's this one? please rate and comment!=)

went to Sunway with the Cheongk Kakies today...yesterday? haha! fun! karaoke was fun! as always!=) i still have like,
1. chemistry exercises
2. maths
3. physics workbook
to do and it's already midnight! plus i have a chem test tomorrow! and lisaaaaaaaan! what the hell lah! BTW, i tasted this REAAAAAAAALLY good CHEEESE MAC SOMETHING in TGI today! DAMM! it was like, heaven on earth! and kylin got a pic of me doing an ad over it. JUST KIDDING! i was just, well, just check the picture out in her blog.XD

THIS IS IT!XD MAC CHEESE SOMETHING!

tomorrow's..today's the start of the co-curiculum! i'm very, VERY excited but also dreading it. me, as PRESIDENT! (OMGGGGGGGGG!) this year! taking care of about 70 kids! aiyooooooooo! i feel so stressed suddenly. and i haven't even prepared what to say during my little speech tomorrow..or today? hopefully everything will go well. I JUST WANT TOMORROW...OR TODAY TO FINISH!

p/s: found out i look better with long lashes! thank god for fake eyelashes since i suck in putting mascara!

Shut up and drive. sorry, this has been going on and on in my head.

2010-01-31T20:43:00.005+08:00

Junchan in the Mozart play as Mozart himself! did i mentioned he had a kiss scene?! good thing it wasn't fancam-ed or anything..otherwise i'll get a heart attack or something. ha!

GUESS WHO THIS IS?!!!!!AHHAAAAAAAAAAA! it's MR KIM JUNSU clad out in an old man makeup! it's for the Break out mv. sorry to scare you like this.XD

Xiahki's new pup! JUNSU GIVE HER/HIM TO ME PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE!XD

i totally forgot his/her name! it's Harang's(Yoochun's dog) pup! cuteeeeeeee!

yes. if Jaejoong was Edward Cullen. IF. which is like, SUPERRR HOT!

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I NEED TO BLOG. LIKE NOW.

i've been neglecting my poor little blog..well, is it even little? ah who cares!

i've just dl-ed the Oh! album by SNSD..like, FINALLY! damm computer..can't even do a decent download for days! from my p.o.v, i think Oh! is NOTHING compared to Gee and Tell me your wish. the style sounds like what F(x) would do...which i totally DO NOT LIKE. and Oh! and just too NOT catchy and TOO ACT CUTE. BLAH! i'm sorry but 2NE1 still rocks my socks off!=) CL UNNIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*** some songs are good. really. check out the ballads. ahhhh...they're from sm after all.

since my grandma just passed away,( did you even know that?!) yeah, my CNY this year will be different. days of pigging out in Penang and Kl, UM, my home. you know? it's not like i'm mourning or anything, i'm a Christian okay! but other people who are not may be 'pantang' and think i bring bad luck to their family or whatsoever. so it's better to just NOT visit anybody and go for a holidaaaaaaay! oh, did i say study for the exam? yeah i will be! I SWEAR!XD and, NO ANGPOWS! AHHHHHH SAVE MEEEEEEEEE!

Suju's concert, 20/3!!!! i'm REALLY REALLY excited about it. not in that kind of 'OMFG MY HUSBAND AND SOULMATES ARE COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' but 'MY HUSBAND AND SOULMATES'S BBF ARE COMING AND MAN, FAMOUS PEOPLE THAT I ONLY SEE ON YOUTUBE AND ALLKPOP ARE COMING!' kind of thing. i'm SO stalking them. hotel, airport and all. and it's during the holidays AFTER THE EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what good timing!

i'm like, currently obbsessed with fanfics. FICTIONPRESS ROCKS!!!! hmmm..no wonder i write like one. ha! so i'm sorta cheating Junchan with random guy characters.. HAHAHAA! YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU JUNSU!!!!! btw, i saw your Mozart musical fanfics! really, i think plays suit you really well. like, REALLY REALLY WELL. Junsu HWAITING!!=)

and guys, please please PLEASE listen to Trax's Let You Go. SUPER SUPER GOOD. and watch the mv too. so you know? you'll really get all the emotions going on. not forgetting, BREAK OUT BREAK OUTTTTTTTT! the latest single from the boys!

i will blog again...soon. i'm gonna go back to reading fanfics! The Champagne Gang on FP!

dedicated to the birthday boy, Junsu.

2009-12-14T22:50:00.010+08:00

*drum rolls*
생일축하해요, 준수야!!!!!! (i wrote it in purple! since our favourite colour is purple!=)
in other words,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNSU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recalling back to the days where i first 'met' you, honestly speaking, when i was introduced to DBSK, the first member that got my attention was Changmin. yeah, i'm serious kylin! he looked so stunning during the O Jung Ban Hap days..(what the hell happened to him now?! but his recent hair cut looks good!) and then the crush goes to Jaejoong, Yunho, Yoochun....WOW! i really did crushed on EVERY member!XDDD and lastly...You. it's not that you were the last resort or something but really..i guess people go through trails and errors before they finally get to THE ONE?=) i was thinking about this matter and i've made a conclusion that:

Liked because of looks: CM, JJ, YH
Liked because of personality more than looks( not to say they weren't handsome or anything): YC and Junsu
i guess, the looks factor was when i was in my early-days of being a cassiopeia.. but after REALLY getting to know DBSK, i'm sure You, are the one.
Junsu, your looks, i have to admit isn't the best in DBSK.( like duh! who can win against JJ!) but, your singing, i have to say is amazingly, i-just-can't-describe awesome! your angelic voice can NEVER be replaced by anyone. unlike most singers, the way you sing live is EXACTLY how you sing it during a recording. do you know? i respect you a lot. and i have to say there aren't many people that i respect, including my parents. yeah, i'm a picky person. Junsu yah, your singing is just unbeatable. i mean, why did i liked you?
first thing: i just admire and respect how you put your soul into your singing. you just sing with so much passion that i can really feel it you know? i really wished i understood what you were singing about because if i did, i think i would be so touched that i'll cry.

second thing: not only you're good in singing, your dancing is hell good too! your powerful moves and never-ending stamina just Wows me. it's like, i try dancing to some song for a few minutes and i'll go all breathless. but when i see your concerts, i'm like "DAMM! HE DANCED ALL THAT WITHOUT STOPPING AND WENT STRAIGHT INTO THE 2ND SONG?! AND HE'S SINGING LIVE TOO?!" the thing is you can dance and sing ALL SO PERFECTLY with no signs of stopping! Junsu you are just..amazing.

third thing: i just like it that you're completely 360 degrees different on stage and off stage. when on stage, you just leave everyone memorize by your amazing voice. and not forgetting your dances! i think you would be very happy to see this, yes Junsu, you are SUPER charismatic on stage!=) you're just so serious and passionate for the things you love doing, like performing! when off stage, you are just SO funny and no, your voice doesn't annoy me!XD are you glad to hear that? you really liven the mood up and cheer people up when they're sad. your REAALLY stupid oyaji gags just makes me go, =.= , and your engrish makes me laugh like crazy but nevertheless, i still love you Jun-chan!=)

fourth thing: YOUR LOVE FOR SPORTS! soccer anyone?XD i REAAAAAAALLY like the competitive side of yours! i was thinking, if we really had the chance to be friends, we might even be good friends! haha!

fifth thing: you're a perfectionist. SO AM I!!!!!!!! i totally love this side of you!=) we could be, the perfectionist couple!XDDD

sixth thing: i love that you're a devoted christian. i still remember that when JJ and YC wanted to make the 'always keep the faith' tattoo, you refused. i really, really, really like it that you keep your stand about your faith. plus, you don't smoke and don't really drink. i've really never known such a perfect man like you. and i've never really known korean artists who used to sing in church before but, yes. there's you. did you know your strong christian faith actually inspired me to continue my christian faith? yes, i want to be like you, i want to make a stand too!

you know what? there are TOO MANY things we both have in common! for example, we love the name' Belle'!=) we love the colour Purple! we are both intimidating!(yes you areeeeeeeee when you don't smile!) we both support our future kids to do what they like when they're young! etc etc etc.

maybe you wouldn't know this, but you inspire me to sing. whenever i sing, i'll always imagine you, like what would you do if you were me? kind of thing. i'll ALWAYS listen to your singing before i perform anything. like i've said, i really want to be like you. i want to give my all in everything i do. i want to put my every emotion into my singing. i want to make my performances unforgettable. and lastly, i want to follow my dreams. i think, you don't even know the effect you have on me!=) haha!

Yah, keep smiling okay? did you know whenever i see you smile, i'll get this really warm feeling in my gut and it seems like the day would go well, no matter how bad it is. you're my source of support you know! so keep smiling that big smile of yours! i know we're in the middle of this storm that looks never-ending, but, look at the brighter side okay? i know by faith! that this will end well. DBSK will NEVER disband or discontinue making your own special music. as YC said, " if you can't do this, then i won't be able to hold on either. " i think that phrase really applies to me too.

Junsu. i really hope you'll be happy. Have a really happy 23/24th birthday today okay! go find Junho or EunHyuk and play some football or online games!=) forget your worries for the moment and have a great birthday this year! and please feed Xiahki for me! HAHAHAAAA!

i have a mini 'junsu' at home too!XDD

2009-11-14T19:41:00.005+08:00

A DAMMMM funny parody that describes the whole court case that is going on now.

Once upon a time a very evil company named SME accidentally brought five AMAZING guys together in a group called DBSK. The boys worked hard and were very talented, but because SME is evil, they took all of the boys' money and treated them like slaves, working them to the bone for mere pennies.

Even though DBSK loves their fans very much, they are humans too and couldn't take anymore of SME's constant taking advantage of them. Because of that, they tried talking to SME about making a few changes, but just got ignored for months on end. Basically, ~~drama queen~~ SME gave them the silent treatment.

So then DBSK was like "Well that's mature." and decided to sue seeing as how it would be easier to negotiate with a bedside table than with SME.

And then SME realised they were being sued for the 4765th time, so they called up the team of lawyers ~~they use DBSK's money to pay for~~ that they keep on hand year-round, just in case someone decides to sue them, seeing as how it happens a lot. But apparently they've been out of practice for a bit because so far they're kind of doing a sucky job. :/

And then SME's financial advisers were like "Uh... we got a problem." and SME was all "Wai?" and then the advisers explained "Yeah, you know how SME has been making a lot of money? Okay well, that money comes from DBSK. Therefore if something happens to DBSK, you will lose a lot of money. Which is bad, because they're suing you. Why are you guys so stupid that you're paying us money to tell you something so obvious?"

So then SME was all "HOSHOOT!!! Quick, everyone think of ways to make more money off of DBSK real fast!" and someone suggested selling dvds and someone else suggested cancelling SMTown Live and someone else suggested actually trying to compromise ~~but everyone ignored him~~ and they just tried the first two things.

And then someone else was like "Heeeeeey, remember all that money DBSK made us at Tokyo Dome? Let's all of a sudden sign them up for another concert and then leech the money off them again!" and everyone else was all "Okay! That's a great idea! Let's do it!" and someone rushed off to set everything up at the last minute behind DBSK's backs.
So then someone remembered that they should probably tell the boys, since they kind of needed them to perform and all.

So they were like "YO, DBSK! We's got you another concert at Shenzen and actually it's been scheduled since last year ~~and not two seconds ago, why do you ask?~~ so we just thought you might want to know, so... yeah! Be there ~~or we'll beat the crap out of you~~ or be square!" and JaeChunSu kinda just stared at them all like "WTF???" and went to go consult their lawyer.

And since their lawyer is awesome, he just rubbed his head because SME is really dumb and gives him migraines on a daily basis. So when he found out SME randomly signed DBSK up for a concert without consulting any of them (which, helloooo, is kind of why they're suing in the first place) and then demanded that DBSK show up and perform ~~whether they liked it or not~~ when they haven't even paid DBSK since February... Yeah, he was kinda displeased.

So then he went to SME and was like "Okay SME, now listen closely, I know this is a difficult concept" and everyone stopped giggling over something really stupid and just kind of stared at him. So the lawyer continued, saying "Okay, you guys are kinda dumb, so it's obvious you're just using this concert to make more money from DBSK while you still have the chance before I pwn you all. I know you're greedy, so quite frankly, I expected this. But since your lawyers suck, apparently, I just wanted to come over and clear things up for you a bit. Because I'm a nice guy like that. So when the courts ruled that you couldn't make DBSK perform without their consent... Well, that basically means you can't make DBSK perform without their consent." (Brief pause as everyone from SME looks completely confuzzled) "So that means that if, say, you go behind DBSK's backs and schedule a concert in- oh, I don't know, let's say Shenzen, for instance- well, they kinda don't have to listen to you." And then he booked it from the building real fast because SME finally realised that the Courts' ruling wasn't just pointless gibberish and that it actually did matter and they went all HULKSMASH!!! on the building and totally broke a few chairs and whatnot. But luckily DBSK's lawyer is really fast so he was okay.

But DBSK actually really like performing and they love their fans so they kinda wanted to do the concert after all. But then they realised that SME still hadn't paid them since February so they probably wouldn't get paid for this either and they kind of wondered what the point of suing was if they were just gonna let SME trick them into doing stuff for free again. So they told SME that they would totally do the concert even though they didn't have to seeing as how SME scheduled it without their permission even after this whole thing had started... and they only had one condition. All they wanted was for SME to show them the details of the contract. And SME was apalled that DBSK actually wanted to know the details of their own gig OMG what was the world coming to? Where were the good old days of artist ~~slavery~~ disappearing to?
So DBSK's lawyer went to try to smooth things over a bit, explaining that DBSK would do the concert just so long as SME would let them know the details of everything. You know, because it's kind of nice to know what the job you're being forced to do actually entails, and all.

But SME didn't really respond too well, because they're really unused to anyone else trying to get their way and SME is usually the one issuing ultimatums. So they decided that instead of letting the boys see the contract for the Shenzen concert, they wouldn't say anything about that and would instead tell JCS to get their butts back in SME by the 12th OR ELSE.

JCS were kinda confused because SME kept saying the Shenzen concert was gonna happen, so they practiced really hard because they thought maybe SME's greed would win out over their stupidity. But unfortunately they figured wrong because when JCS just kept quiet on the 12th, SME pitched ~~a girly little fit~~ a ROYAL HISSY and tried to make fans all upset by saying that the concert was cancelled because JCS "refused" to participate.

And then the boys' lawyer went and tore all of his hair out due to sheer frustration because SME was being so difficult, so now he is bald.
THE END.

So I guess SME tried to be all sneaky and they were like "Looook, a new concert, ~~where did that come from?~~ YOU'RE TOTALLY DOING THIS, ~~SLAVES~~ JaeChunSu!" And JCS were like "Okay fine, we like concerts and we love our fans but you have to pay us this time, so can we see the concert contract, pls?" and SME was all "Aw, HALE NAW, you did not just ask us that!!!" and that's where we are at right now.

To everyone who is wondering why JaeChunSu didn't "refuse" the concert earlier...
They did.
They told SME straight up from the start that they would do it only if the could see the contract details.
And SME left them hanging. They never said "No, we won't do that", so that the boys could publicly declare that the concert would not happen. The boys were probably thinking that the concert might still go on, which is why they were preparing.
And now that JCS didn't give in to SME's demand, they are trying to spin this issue in their favor.
It's not JCS's fault that SME left them hanging. I'm sure they made their position clear from the very beginning, so please stop blaming them.

Supporting letter for DBSK
Source: TVXQasia
Translation: smiley + 2MY + sshutingg @ OneTVXQ.com
Credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }

TVXQ and Cassiopeia are one. (TVXQ and Cassiopeia, we are one.)
TVXQ, the Rising Gods of the East
Cassiopeia, the guardian of the constellation of TVXQ
Recently, there have been a lot of news regarding TVXQ, and we are very worried; SM is currently using many ways to attack TVXQ in an attempt to divide the gods and us. These actions are unbearable, but SM will never tear us apart.
Six years have already passed, and we now have enough strength to protect TVXQ. We made a promise that no matter what happens we will stand by TVXQ. We love you and believe in you, just like we have since the beginning.

Please do not forget our promise. When you are sad and down, there is still us. When you are sad, happy, or having a hard time, just turn your head and we will always be there for you, to support and cheer you on.
TVXQ, we will walk with you to the end.
During those six years, we have matured, and have gained trust for one another. Every scene has been imprinted onto our minds; the sadness, the pain, the touching moments, and the happiness - these are what we shared together. Every single page is the footprints of love. We have grown up maturely; though we may not be able to do much, we have chosen to believe and we choose to protect willingly.

We always wanted to say out loud, "Dong Bang Shin Ki, it has been tough for you, but all the sweat and tears were worth it. Please take care of yourselves!
Dong Bang Shin Ki, please take the courage and the love from each one of us, and keep moving forward.

We will support you towards the road to the future!
Cassiopeia will always be by your side. We will never leave!
We are TVXQ's Cassiopeia forever.

2009-11-14T17:33:00.002+08:00

i know i have been slacking off in terms of blogging so here it comes! laziness is coming over me lately.XDD

tagged by Kylin!

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits, or goals about you. Don't forget to leave a comment ("You're Tagged!"), and to read your blog, you can't tag a person who tagged you.

1. I CAN'T FIND THE ENG SUBBED VERSION FOR THE 12TH EPISODE OF YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!!! bleh! life sucks! and episode 11 ended with a bloody KISS! what a cliffhanger! well, at least it was between Taekyung and Minam!XDDD though my heart is breaking..no, crashing. Geunsuk oppa YAAAAAAAAAH! I HEART YOU!XDDD

2. God, please don't make DBSK break up. PLEASE. seriously. i can't see the end of the court case between DBSK and SME. it just gets more and MORE complicated. now what? JJ, JS and YC can't participate in activities as DBSK? this makes me SO SADDD. =( SME, although you're the one who made DBSK, well, DBSK, you can't push the blame on DBSK! so now what? you're not focusing on the income division problem but instead on saying the concert in Shenzhen has to be cancelled because of decision Jaechunsu made?! hello?! the problem is with YOU. STOP pushing the blame on other things like Crebeau and Jaechunsu! so you're trying to divide the fans now huh? into Jaechunsu fans Homin fans? i'm SICK and TIRED of the crap you're trying to pull. just change the BLOODY UNFAIR contract already! what is DBSK to you? slaves?! hello? you haven't even paid them their income since June? last year! and cassiopeians, IT'S TIME TO STICK TOGETHER WITH OUR LOVE FOR THE BOYS. not fight among ourselves. it doesn't matter who is in the wrong, Jaechunsu or Homin, but that we have to support them AS 5. DBSK is NOTHING without 5. DBSK is everything to me you know that? without them, kpop is NOTHING. or rather, music is NOTHING. oh wait, my life is lifeless. you can't do this to me.

3. watching 2PM perform is, bittersweet. 1.59PM is such a GOOOOD album but the fact is, well, Jaebum isn't there. i mean, their LEADER okay! how can a group function without it's LEADJA?! but still, the perf of Heartbeat is DAAAAAMMMMMMMMM good. dance moves especially. check it out! plus, the fans sure are passionate fans! hear the chants! JYP sure knows how to produce great songs. btw, WHAT HAPPENED TO TAECYEON AND NICK KHUN?!

4. MBLAQ's JOON IS SO FRICKING HOTTTTT! oh damm, after watching Oh Yeah, he definitely stood out. plus he acts as the younger ver of Rain in Ninja Assassin. DAMM HOT.

5. Youngbae's Wedding Dress is COOL. his vocals are very smooth. and the mv is just wonderfully omg. the actress is so pretty!SIGH! plus his dancing is so SMOOOOTH and with power! i'll definitely rate it an A+.

6.Beast is getting to me. i didn't exactly like Bad Girl at first, but it's getting to me..slowly and gradually. i don't feel any of the members though.

7. Changmin is going to Australia, (YES AUSTRALIA!!!!) to start filming Paradise Ranch. lucky you Australians!!!=( while here i am.. waiting.. i'm not really looking forward to CM's drama, cuz i find him..a bit stiff. but i'm SO anticipating JJ's Heaven's Postman to be subbed so i can watch it!=) WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!

8. almost everyone around me are in a relationship..BLAH! so naturally, i'm sorta envious. honestly speaking. but you what? YOU'RE WORTH IT. why am i getting my knickers in a knot over some guy that isn't..my dream guy? when i start to fantasize, i'll make myself see sense when i compare them to college guys, or, kpop artists like, Junsu, Geunsuk, Taecyeon, Joon and SOOOO many others! what are THEY compared to THEM?! only then, i'll think, "are the girls in my school so desperate for love?" "damm. they don't have ANY taste." "are YOU so cheap?" i will NEVER give in to peer pressure.

9. i just realized i don't reaaally like Bapbingsu.(is is spelled like that?) it's sorta like ABC but korean styled. and it's because i don't like red bean, and it has LOADS of it. yucccks.

10. DBSK's newest song, Toki Wo Tomete is just so..heartbreaking. you HAVE to listen to the song to feel the lyrics.

急ぐように夏の星座たちが
As if they were rushing, the summer’s constellations
ビルの谷間に傾いて隠れてく
hide themselves in the valleys between the buildings
通りすぎる僕らの毎日
During every day that passed us by
ちっぽけな事で泣きそうな時もある
There are times when I feel like crying at the smallest things
いつか君が行きたがっていた
Even though the restaurant that you wanted to
あの店はもう無くなってしまったけど
go to has disappeared
どんな日も僕たちは
No matter what the day is,
二人の恋は終わらないと信じていた
I believe that our love has not ended
時を止めて
Stop the time
ずっと君のそばにいたい
I want to be by your side forever
もっと君を抱きしめたい
I want to hold you more closely to me
一つ一つ君の事を覚えながら
One memory after another of you surfaces up
永遠だけ信じてた
I believed only in eternity
時を止めて
Stop the time
ずっと君のそばにいたい
I want to be by your side forever
見上げた空、願いこめて
Looking at the sky, with all my wishes
ひとつひとつ輝く星繋げながら
While connecting each and every glittering star,
君の形探してた
I searched for your shape
時を止めて
Stop the time
ずっと君のそばにいたい
I want to be by your side forever
もっと君を抱きしめたい
I want to hold you more closely to me
一つ一つ君の事を覚えながら
One memory after another of you surfaces up
永遠だけ信じてた
I believed only in eternity

okay. i decided to do 10 questions. i just saw this questionnaire in soompi.

1. What if dbsk disband? Will you hate them or support them?
2. What if HoMin side SM Ent, its true? Will you blame them or support them?
3. What if JaeChunSu sue SM Ent because they`re selfish and greedy? Will you still stand for them?
4. Will you ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH even though you`re already knew dbsk are lying?

1. if DBSK disband,I'LL DEFINITELY SUPPORT THEM. even if they disband, in my heart, i'll always believe that they'll be back as 5 again. no matter how long the wait is, 5 years, 10 years or even 15 years, or even, forever. even if my heart is hurting with pain that they disbanded, i'll support each and every one of them. that's what unconditional love is, isn't it? they may do every wrong thing in the world but i'll still love them.

2. i've already said it, i'll support them as 5. every one of them. nevertheless what side they're taking. i'm sure they have their reasons for doing what they're doing.

3. i'll be VERY, VERY sad if it's true. but i don't believe it. BUT IF IT'S TRUE, I'LL STILL SUPPORT THEM. you may think that i'm acting like a headless chicken, or rather, headless fan who just loves them blindly, but this to me, this is what "always keep the faith" is all about. humans make mistakes, and i'm sure they will learn when they realize it. it's us fans that are responsible to support them when the world is against them, to shower them with love when the they're down, and most importantly to believe in them when the everything seems wrong.

4.yes. 100% YES. i've already made my point clear earlier. their happiness and freedom are more important than anything else.

2009-11-01T01:11:00.002+08:00

Yes, i'm gonna do a tag...which i stole from Jolynne?XD
i know i'm bored! well..not really. just too overwelmed with things.. and i'll watch You're Beautiful after this.

Tagged by: Jolynne

HAIR...you have/use
[x] straightener
[ ] curling iron
[x] mousse
[x] hairspray
[x] gel
[ ] other sprays
[x] bobbypins
[x] hair clips
[ ] round barrel brush
[x] blow dryer
[x] mirror
[ ] you have or had dyed your hair
[x] you have or had highlights
[x] you need to check your hair at least once every hour
[x] you hate it when people touch your hair

Total: 12 (woooops! not looking good!)

EYES...you have/use/do
[x] black eyeliner
[x] other color eyeliner
[x] eye shadow
[x] mascara
[x] fake eyelashes
[x] eyelash curler
[ ] eye shimmer
[ ] colored contacts
[ ] stunner shades
[x] eye makeup remover
[x] you refrain from touching your eyes because of your make up
[x] you try to avoid from getting your makeup smudged

Total so far: 21 (oh oh..)

LIPS/TEETH...you have/use/do
[x] clear lip gloss
[x] red or pink lip gloss
[x] lip stick
[x] chapstick/lip balm
[ ] lip plumper
[x] electric toothbrush
[ ] teeth whitener
[ ] lip liner
[ ] more than 15 lipglosses
[x] toothpaste
[ ] mouthwash
[ ] you reapply your lipgloss/lipstick frequently
[ ] it takes you at least 5-10 mins to get your lip gloss perfect

Total so far: 27 ( i knew it!)

COMPLEXION/OVER-ALL FACE...you have/use
[x] blush
[ ] moisturizer
[x] face wash
[x] bronzer
[x] makeup remover
[x] face wipe
[x] powder
[x] concealer
[x] tweezers

Total so far: 35 (let's see how this goes..)

NAILS...you have/use/do
[x] nail polish
[x] nail polish remover
[x] nail file
[x] nail clipper
[ ] nail buffer
[ ] cuticle remover
[ ] nail hardener
[ ] nail brush
[ ] have/had Fake nails
[ ] nail scissors
[x] you hate it when your nail polish chips

Total so far : 40

CLOTHES...you have/use/do
[ ] takes you 30 minutes or more to pick out an outfit
[ ] almost never like your outfit
[x] hate it when you spill something on your shirt
[ ] obsessed with what people think
[x] you hate it when you can't find shoes to match

Overall Total: 42

Now, take your score and multiply it by 84.( OH OH!!)
Then, repost as 'I am__ % obsessed with my looks' and then tag 10 friends to do the same.

I am 84% obsessed with my looks. er...wow an A?XD

WILL UPDATE LATEEEEEEEEEER.

2009-10-22T00:18:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my BELOVED fanfic has just been updated!!! BLAH!! KWON TAEHYUN IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT! and i believe even though Soojin is back,(WHOA i LOOOVED the dramatic entrance!) Taeri/Taejin? still EXISTS! and SOOOO glad Soojin wasn't the one who killed his mom. THANK GOD! and i DEFINITELY love Soojin more than Yoori. GIRL POWER MAN!XD and it's cool to see that soojin is actually HUMAN, that she actually has some sort of feeling? towards taehyun. well, despite hating him.
PARIS!!!XD

Taehyun is SO hot. like seriously.

AIREL BELIEVES IN PARIS! TAERI/ TAEJIN HWAITING!=)

okay. i just finished my rant after reading the best fanfic of my life. i CAN'T WAIT for the next update! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

2009-10-19T21:19:00.003+08:00

OH DAYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUM!
Jung Il Woo and Jang Geun Suk are just HOTTTTTTTTT!!!

i think you can guess what dramas i'm watching now.XD

yes, i'm currently trying to finish My Fair Lady and You're Beautiful! i seriously think what Jyyi told me is true. like how i get VERRRY attracted to guys with single eyelids aka small eyes. AHAHAHHA! i just googled them up and found out that, SURPRISE! they're both 22 this year!CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!! they're younger than junsu! WHOA. Ilwoo as a lawyer in MFL is just sweet la! his character is so sweet.=) i think i'll resume watching The Return of Iljimae just for him. well, when i finish my list of dramas first.XD

and , OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG! Geunsuk! you hottie! my love for him has resumed AGAIN! i started liking him after watching Hong Gil Dong and now YB! he's SOOO HOT! and he's 22!oh did i mentioned that earlier?XD i'm SO watching Beethoven Virus just for him!

i can't believe i'm saying this but, i feel asleep watching DBSK's Tokyo Dome concert. riiiiight after Begin. OH BLOODY HELL I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF!! it definitely was NOT boring but just..i guess i was sleepy. i'll continue later.

and i haven't had the time (or feel!) to watch Gossip Girl since i could watch so many awesome korean dramas. so yeah, one daaaaayyyyy...

i realized many korean artists like to travel to Europe for their holidays. like for example, Ilwoo went backpacking there after wrapping up TROI HIMSELF. like, alone. it makes me wanna go backpacking in Europe too! in case i get to meet some korean stars!XD

Yunnie's HTTG is not doing well and it's probably gonna finish early. thanks to some fierce competition from Iris and You're Beautiful, who are getting 20+ ratings and HTTG, <10. yeaah.. not good. Yunho oppa please don't be sad okay! this is just your 1st drama experience and i really think that you'll do better in the future! well, people don't become successful after one try you know?just take this as a learning experience!=)

adding to my drama list...
1. My Fair Lady
2. You're Beautiful
3. Beethoven Virus
4. Iris
5. Heading to the Ground
6. The Return of Iljimae

2009-10-18T22:38:00.002+08:00

BREAKING NEWS!!

As many of you know, the contract with SM has bound TVXQ in an unconscionable “slave contract.” Under the contract, the members have virtually no rights. They have no right to know the specifics of the terms that they are subjected to. They have no right to argue for themselves their rightful compensations or the musical directions they want to pursue. They also have no right to refuse the work that SM assigns them, which leads to a grueling work pace that permits only a few days of rest per year. Most egregious of all, the members are stripped of their right to escape the contract by paying fair damages, although SM retains their right to terminate the contract at will.

In August of 2009, the members of TVXQ filed for an injunction to nullify this slave contract. SM retaliated by manipulating the press to spread malicious and false rumors about TVXQ. SM also showed its disregard for both the fans and TVXQ’s personal commitment to them by blocking TVXQ from participating in a long-waited Korean concert (SM Town Live ‘09).

However, now that the legal battle has continued for a few weeks, SM has unashamedly turned to squeezing every dime out of TVXQ in order to hoard the money to fight the members in court. In contrast to the disregard it showed to TVXQ’s Korean fans, SM has hosted a concert in China since the filing of the injunction (Shanghai in October ‘09) and plans to host another one soon (Shimcheon [I think they mean Shenzhen] in November ‘09). SM has also created and begun to sell its merchandise in Japan. Additionally, SM has announced that it will release several new products that market TVXQ in the next few weeks.

We understand that all income that SM generates from now on will be used as WEAPONS against TVXQ. The fans have already given too much money to SM without it benefiting the members themselves. To vindicate the rights of the members and the fans, the fans have launched a boycott against all SM products.

Please participate in the boycott and refrain from buying and giving money to any and all SM merchandises and businesses. The money that we give SM to buy TVXQ products will be turned around to injure TVXQ.

GUIDELINES FOR THE BOYCOTT

All products produced by SM Entertainment are subject to the boycott. Specifics are enumerated below.

A. Any product marketing TVXQ that is produced in Korea is subject to the boycott. This includes Korean singles, live and regular albums, photos and photobooks, merchandise, concert DVDs, original character products, and any other products manufactured by SM Entertainment.

B. All Japanese singles and albums that are LICENSED BY SM are essentially Korean products and should be boycotted.

C. All other kinds of music products, such as individual songs available for downloading and streaming, BGMs for websites, answering tones (known as “coloring” in Korea), and ringtones are subject to the boycott.

D. Singing TVXQ songs in karaoke generates income for SM and therefore should be refrained from.

E. All other business enterprises related to SM should also be boycotted. They include:
i) Restaurants: Ashley, Podonamu, E-table
ii) Karaoke service: Everysing
iii) Clothing store: SPAO

F. SM merchandises that have bypassed AVEX Entertainment and are directly sold in Japan are also subject to the boycott. Please do not confuse them with AVEX products. Examples of these exorbitantly-priced merchandises include:
i) All about TVXQ, sold for approx. $200
ii) “clear files,” sold for approx. $50

PLEASE NOTE THAT ALL PRODUCTS RELEASED BY “AVEX ENTERTAINMENT” ARE NOT SUBJECT TO THE BOYCOTT. Please continue to purchase them.

Japanese singles, albums, and DVDs come in two varieties: those released by AVEX (the so-called Japanese or Hong Kong versions) and those licensed by SM (the so-called Korean versions). We encourage that you purchase the former, but please refrain from buying the latter. 100% of the money used to buy SM-licensed products, even if they are Japanese, goes directly to SM.

The fans should continue the boycott until 1) the unconscionable slave contract between SM and TVXQ is bettered to the satisfaction of our members and 2) we as consumers have found a voice against SM.

Again, please remember that all money that goes to SM will be spent on injuring our dear members.
Your choice to boycott will make a difference!

source: dnbn (http://dnbn.pe.kr/bbs/zboard.php?id=db01&no=22202)
shared by: OneTVXQ.com + sharingyoochun@wordpress

AIREL IS DEFINITELY BOYCOTTING.

2009-10-18T21:30:00.001+08:00

“Be careful with men. Men are wolves!”
Junsu you are just too funny!XD

and, FUCK YOU. NO ONE, badmouths DBSK in front of me. SO WHAT?! if you're my mom? it's just a title. i know who my REAL family is. and it's definitely NOT you.

2009-10-14T22:56:00.006+08:00

my realplayer and internet is going nuts on me.
when i click a file to open it, it redirects to another file and opens that file. i seriously dunno what the hell is it's problem?! since i updated the version, it has been like this. what a bother.
for the internet, it's okay after i open some pages but the...KABOOOOOOM! it says ' the page cannot be found in this region...' bla bla or something like that. so is it the internet's fault or mozilla firefox's?

i just found out from Jyyi just now that..LEE MINHO is coming to SG WANG on the 25 of OCTOBER. hurray for all those JunPyo fans out there! but for those who are not, DON'T GO TO SG WANG ON THAT DAY. trust me. after my experience with the SS501 fanmeet, i can tell you that things are NOT going to go well that day. i'm anticipating lateness, orderliness, super a lot of people( fans and busybodys who like to see what is going on and just add up to the numbers) and no manners-ness. for me, i'm not going since i have no relation to him whatsoever, since DBSK is not related to him in a way, so yeah. tell me what happened for those who are going!=)

exams that started last wed just finished today! THANK GOD! a total of 1 week. and for me, 8 days straight of not going online. HOW COOL IS THAT?! since everybody's been REALLY serious about this exam, i HAD to be too. otherwise the last position in class will not be very far from me. sheer determination man. i think i did OKAAAAY. yeah, okay. see how the results are tomorrow.

there is a "always keep the faith" project organized by SayangDbsk on the 7th of November at Starhill, 12pm . this is strictly for malaysian cassies to show support for our boys. so..i have to learn the steps to Mirotic.

AHHAHAAA! AIREL YOU'RE SO DEAD!

shut up you.

they wanted to do what the mexicans did for mj, that is to do a huge dance-together thingy to Mirotic. i have to say it's really cool, but i want to see how many people will actually go to the event. and come on, the mirotic dance can not really be danced by a group! especially the front part! but whatever, i'll do my part and PRACTICE!XD

DBSK just concluded their Shanghai concert and i have to say, it was A SUCCESS. a huge one indeed. chinese cassies REAAAAALYY did their job well. i'm SUPER impresed. after the one in seoul, bangkok and some other place in china,tianjin is it?, i really don't know what other ideas the chinese cassies could think of to show their support for the boys. plus, the blue lights event in tokyo dome was really STUNNING. check this out.

but look at this.

yes. be awed.
'Midoyo', that's what written on every piece of white cloth, means 'I believe in you'. i'm not surprised many members INCLUDING jun-chan cried. with the rumours about them disbanding and that their court case hasn't been solved yet, i think this show of support is much needed. i feel so proud to be a cassie.

and Changmin ah! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?! please feed yourself with FOOD! if you're eating 5 bowls of rice per meal, eat 10!XD

Iris just started showing today, so i guess i have to wait for a while for the subbed version to come out. i realized that dramas are coming to me in LOADS!

1. Iris (what is there to say? great storyline, hot actors - TOP!)
2. You're Beautiful ( MAN! Jang Geunsuk and HongGi are HOT! great plot too!)
3. Beethoven Virus (just caught the bug! or virus!XD i wasn't interested initially because the main character was a, quite old? man, but after watching 1 episode, i have to say, DAMM! HE HAS PERSONALITY! AIREL LIKES IT!XD)
4. My Fair Lady (which i haven't finished yet!)
5. Heading to the Ground (SOOOOORRY YUNNIE! it wasn't....quite interesting. but i promise you i WILL finish it!=)

well, at least the final exams are over.XD

OH YEAH! ONE REAAAALLY IMPORTANT THING! my beloved TOKYO DOME CONCERT DVD ARRIVED!!!! like... one week ago? yeah. it arrived last monday WHEN the exams were going to start. i tell you, airel is resistant!XD HOW? i locked it and Gossip Girl in my drawer and hid the key. clever much?XD but STILL! i still FELT the presence of it LURING me! so yes, i'm gonna watch it later in the night when NO ONE is looking and commenting on my weird antics and when my inner fangirl comes out.XD i tell you, i was actually watching it just now until the starting performance, when my MOM who was looking at me fangirling started to lecture me AGAIN for some idol worshiping WHATEVER. i mean, HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SO ANNOYING?!! stupid shit. since i didn't want to watch it while i'm angry, (then what's the point right? i won't be able to enjoy it!) i decided to watch it WHEN SHE'S ASLEEP. annoying jerk.

don't you think my husband is just DAMMMMMMMMM DAYUUUMM HOT?! look at the muscles in his hands! and the whole body structure! damm i LOVE HIM.

junsu performed Xiahtic during the concert and... MY FACE IS GREEN.

yes. GREEN WITH ENVY. airel is very,VERY JEALOUS. BOILING, in fact.

and he performed this in FRONT OF HIS MOM?!!

yes. the pretty lady is Junsu's mom, aka my future mother-in-law.XD oh my! she's just SO PRETTY! and she was watching the concert.

i couldn't find the family pic I KNOW I HAD and saved in my hard disk so nevermind, this is a front view of her.

she was a miss korea before so..junsu definitely got his looks from her.

DBSK is gonna have a concert in Shenzhen, China on the 21th of November. i REALLY want to go, since i don't know WHETHER they can perform TOGETHER in the future or not. so i went to check out airasia, and the plane ticket itself already cost rm650. PLAN FAILED. AGAIN. damm it.

Worse day EVER.

2009-09-29T21:50:00.002+08:00

29.9.09 is officially my WORSE DAY EVER.

it all started out yesterday. yesterday was the start of schooling after a week of holidays. due to the fact that a farewell party for the sport society was gonna go on on tuesday, i, the organizer/planner was SUPEEEEER busy due to last minute stuff.

in the morning, there was assembly and there was supposed to be a broadcast about this event gonna go on on thusday. it was a VERY important broadcast because no one really knew much about it so..publicity!=) BUT! for i do-not-know-what-reason, they broadcasted it AFTER the form6s went off to their class, when the whole school were going out of the hall to their respective classes. so i was like, WTF?! and then Suteng who is form6, the sport society captain asked me why i didn't broadcast the news. i could see she thought i didn't plan or do my responsibilities well so i didn't broadcast the news. only AFTER i explained everything to her then she understood. so nevermind, everybody makes mistakes.

THEN the form6s told me in a joking but i knew they were not way that they will not attend the farewell party if they didn't receive a invitation card. so i was like, WTF?! i thought the invitation cards were only for teachers only! so i had to find people who were reliable (and i tell you there aren't many!) to do the cards for them in a short period of time(1 day!).

and then, my physics teacher let us off late so i missed the bus back home. so i HAD to call my father to fetch me back home. during that time, i met up with my badminton club teacher to give her the receipts for the presents. and then she suggested( or more like TOLD) me to make small notes for the members to write messages for Suteng, since she's our captain and all. so i HAD to ask someone (good thing i met valerie!) to make those notes and i had to give out and take them back the next day!

and that's just the icing on the top for a horrible day after.

it started in the morning. RIIIIIHT in the morning. so the people who were making the card DID make the cards(THANK GOD!) and i told them to give them out and guess what? the form6s were like, "whaaa...today's the farewell party and today you're only giving us the cards?" i was like, HELLOOOOOOOOOO?! i'm sorry that i didn't know i had to give you cards but i DID ask someone to make the cards at the last minute just for YOU!

since today was the farewell party, the broadcast is a MUST today. i didn't really notice if it was being broadcasted or not but assumed it was, since we had been broadcasting this since before the holidays. then out the blue, a student came to my class and told me "um..the broadcasting crew said that they received this note(to broadcast) too late so they didn't broadcast it. i was again, WTF?! i was REAAALLY pissed off. like, you KNOW i HATE people who forget to do what they're supposed to do and don't know what 'responsibility' is. so i asked the person who was supposed to send the note. and she told me she actually gave them the day earlier! so i was again, WTF?! why do these kind of things happen to me! and out of all the days!

and then i found out i HAD to go and see the teacher during recess for some badminton club stuff. i mean, why TODAY out of ALL days?! you know i'm SOOOO busy today since i had to give out the notes for Suteng and arrange stuff for the farewell party! plus we had the chinese presentation today and it finished DURING recess. and my chinese teacher said that we had to watch the video then only we could go out. i was AGAIN, WTF?!! I HAVE THINGS TO DO!

fast forward some other unlucky-ness and there it came! the farewell party. the people in charge of the deco were only starting to decorate the hall and i was AGAIN!!!!, WTF?!! i thought i told you to do this on monday! but whatever. i went to call the teachers to come to the hall but found out that 90% of the teachers were attending a meeting. BAD LUCK OR WHAT?! so like, only 3 teacher attended?! OMG I'M SUCH A FAILURE. i heard many people were not attending so i was pretty surprised to see about 100-150 people attending. THANK GOD! if not i'll feel even more horrible. and THEN valerie told me that the songs we chose to sing during the lets-make-the-form6s-cry-moment could NOT be played. apparently the cd she burned the songs in couldn't play. i was AGAIIIN! like, WTFFFF?! how am i gonna save this farewell party! how am i gonna end it in a memorable manner?! so in the end we had to use the broadcasting crew's songs to play, though without those songs we chose. due to much hustling and bundling, the form6s had to wait outside so they were not very happy about it. i mean, what can i do?! damm the scene was SO messy! i hate working with a large amount of people. so it started. the sport teacher was rambling AGAIN! so i was stucked outside with some guys who came late. then it was games. the form6s were against water games so we had to cancel that EVEN THOUGH we had already prepared the water balloons.

at first, it was JUST MESSY. it took a loooong time to get everyone in their positions and the form6s were just looking, not too good. then after everyone got the hang of it, i could see everybody were having fun. i was really happy when i saw that scene.=) then the people in charge of food came back from MV. i tell you, 500 donuts are NOT easy to carry. i respect you guys!XD then food time was great. everyone was having fun eating the big apple donuts. everything just looked perfect.

AND THEN came the SUPER, HORRIBLE, AWKWARD part. since there was no music, i had to lead the crowd to sing by well, singing. it was REEEEEEALLY AWKWARD. everyone sorta just watched me sing since i couldn't hear the form6s singing anyway. since i couldn't hear them sing and i didn't want to hog the whole singing thing, so i stopped to let them sing and.... it just stopped there. so i asked them to sing by themselves to end up them singing SUPEEEEEER softly and the WORSE thing is the BOYS started to get up and leave like, right in the middle of them singing. i was like, "OMG HOW COULD SUCH A THING HAPPEN?!" seriously, i could just dig a hole and die at that moment. slowly everyone were going and some people started to give presents. at the end we asked them to give a speech when like, HALF of the people were already gone. so they were like," half of the people are already gone! who is gonna listen to us talk?" i was like, OMGGGGGGGG!NOOOOOOOOOO! and it ended. just there. without them crying and giving the touching speech but instead looking....quite pissed. GREAT AIREL GREAT. YOU ARE SUCH A FAILURE.

did you know? last year's farewell party didn't go so well so i thought well, airel's organizing it this year so i t should be better than last year..but turned out to be, LOOOOADS WORSE! i can't imagine how STUPID and what a FAILURE i am.

yes. airel you suck so BAD and just go die like a failure you are!!!!

yes. i think so too. i feel like a loser now. REALLY. no kidding.
and because of this, i didn't feel like revising so i just decided to blog about this.

OH YEAH! WHY CAN'T SOME PEOPLE NOT FORGET THINGS THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO DO?! WHY ARE THEY SO IRRESPONSIBLE?! and that's why i like working alone. 君主制度 rocks.

fangirling!

2009-09-23T22:10:00.007+08:00

i swear, like, seriously. even though i'm a 100% Jun-chan fan, don't you think Jaejoong looks like, HOTTEEEEEEEEER than usual in these few pics? maybe he got more rest since it's their 2 month break?

very badboy look. can you feel the electricity flowing to you through his eyes?
I CAN!

In Vivi Magazine Oct issue. pg 146,147 i remember. the hottest photoshoot i've EVER seen by him. LOVE his eyes? *contacts?XD*

another looking-straight-into-your-eyes photoshoot. this guy is just amazing la. some people even compare him to edward of twilight.

anyway, i just listened to Dbsk's Bigeast Station no130 and DAMM. i was laughing like, NON-STOP! especially when YunJaeChun started gossiping about my dear Junsu again and guess what? Junsu HIMSELF came into the studio and started talking on the airwaves! like WTH?! i tell you, when i heard him speak after such a long time of not hearing his voice, i really, REALLY, REALLYfelt like crying. oh my Junsu!=( i miss you SO!

- YunChunJae gossiping about Junsu-
a fan asks: has Dbsk ever forgot Korean sometimes? (because you know? Dbsk speaks Korean and Japanese)
YC: korean, right? in japan, korean..
YH: sometimes.
YC: Junsu..(Junsu comes into the picture AGAIN!) i'll sometimes forget Junsu.
YH: Junsu forgets both korean and japanese at the same time.
YC: forgets. *laughs laughs laughs*
YH: he has these expressions that are neither japanese nor korean. "ah!" "ooh!" "oh!" "uh!" "owah!".. really!
YC shouts: Junsu came!
YH: they're really short sounds.
JJ: just like an alien. an alien.
after some bla bla bla....
JJ: Junsu stil hasn't come in yet. *laughs laughs laughs* ( Junsu must be lurking outside the studio glaring at them!XD) even though he has been speaking Japanese for a long time already, it's still really nothing. when he goes "ah" "hmm" "ahhh" "hm" *weird noises*, you can only say, "oh, i see."
YC: Junsu's coming in right now. (HAHAHAAAA! he must be pissed off at them!XD)
YH: just like a manager.
after some bla bla bla..
YH: Junsu, you're noisy!( Junsu must be playing with them by tickling them or something because YC started laughing and no sound was heard from JS.)

-Junsu comes in!HAHA!-
YH: so how did today go Junsu? Junsu, you came so suddenly.
JJ: you surprised me!
JS: i was listening at home and..
YH: ran here?
JS: ran here.
YH: EHHH?
JS says seriously: please don't talk about me. ( KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! HE'S SO CUTE!)

[Bigeast Station: a radio programme Dbsk hosts.]

hubby wearing black!=)

pics at the studio!

so yeah, JaeChun just released the 2nd song in their single, Colours ~Melody and Harmony~ and it's called Shelter! very good song. has a Jae kind of feeling like in 9095. like duh! Jae composed it with Junsu!XD KYAAAAAH! that's why the beginning part is sorta dark... and then the chorus goes bright again! the Jaesu effect!XD

will post about the reunion after i get the pics from Sammie!=)

Allergies.

2009-09-19T01:26:00.003+08:00

Bontegi! zoom in for a better look!

Damm. my whole body is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ITCHY RIGHT NOWWWWWWWW!
'mosquito bites' kind of thing is surfacing on every part i scratch! ALLERGY SUCKS!

today i went to 1Utama with Kylin and Jyyi for our Karaoke outing and my '1U one day tour'. we ended up singing loads of old songs as the neway there is TOTALLY outdated! so after that, i went to check out Lotte mart and bought some korean food stuff and some cutlery. THEN i saw they were selling some thing DBSK once recommended to eat in a Japanese tv show! anyone knows what 'bontegi' is? it's actually a can food that contains some kind of insect drenched with some sauce? they said though it looked disgusting, it was very delicious. so i decided to try it. well...fangirl!=)
*i just googled what 'bontegi' is, and it says 'silkworm cocoons boiled with the worm inside.' there you go!

i got hungry at night so i started eating that. i really had to force myself to take the first bite as it looked..well..really something. but after eating it, i found out i REALLY liked it! very unique taste! and so i began eating until...it almost finished when i realized my whole body was turning hot and everywhere, and i mean EVERYWHERE started to itch. so i thought it was just you know? mosquito bites, so i just scratched it. then almost my whole face started to have 'mosquito bites' . and i started to freak out. by then, i knew i was SERIOUSLY allergic to this thing! and i have to tell you that i seldom get allergic to anything. so i guess this isn't my kind of thing?

*scratch scratch*
STOP SCRATCHING AIREL! DO YOU WANT IT TO LEAVE A MARK?!

yeah. i guess that's all. going for dinner with the coaches and badminton teammates tomorrow....hope my face doesn't have any signs of 'bites' tomorrow. otherwise i'll NEVER go.

2009-09-18T00:37:00.003+08:00

i've just started watching Mnet Scandal which stars Nichkhun of 2Pm and i have to say..KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!! NICHKHUN IS LOOOOOVE!
seriously, korean guys who speak english well are just HOT. like, that is totally going into my 'qualities of my dream bf' list! for example, Yoochun. DAMM. his voice matches english like...
airel to ice-cream! PERFECTO!=) and the next in my list is SOOO Nichkhun! just googled his profile and i have to say..he mastered korean really well for a american-thai in just..2 years? very cool! plus his height is just kyah!179cm is perfect for a 164cm me.=) too bad he's a buddist... looks like i'm gonna pay attention to 2Pm's activities from now on..or lack of. it's just sad how JaeBeom's case turned out to become like this. which resulted in a lot of cancellations of their activities..netizens can sometimes be REALLY annoying! and meddling! seriously. now a great band in the making can just NOT be the same anymore. that just ruins many people' dreams and efforts you know? i just wanna say, "I SUPPORT YOU PARK JAE BEOM!'

WHICH i just found out Shiwon and Eunhyuk from SJ are christians! not surprising for Eunhyuk, as Junsu is also one. but Shiwon?! WHOA. i'm surprised. judging by HOW he treated me during the mtv asia awards last year!=( anyway, i watched Bigbang's Lotte Park video and it was just HILARIOUS! i was like, laughing non stop! DAMM! Seungri is getting on me! AHHHHH! why can't DBSK have this kind of activity?!!=( it will be SOOO FUN to watch! oh right..IF they get caught by fans..it could be a life and death situation. hmmmm..NOT GOOD.

ahhhh...enough of that. let's get back to reality.
this morning, i was doing maths during the free time we had every morning when i saw those 2 male disciplinary teachers walking towards my class. i quickly took off my glasses to change to the 'i'm a good and nerdy student' glasses which was not illegal but TOO LATE! i just had enough time to take my glasses off when they came in and said"DON'T MOVE!"
like HELLOOOOO?! are we shooting a movie?!

it's 2.30am and it's so cooling right now! life is bliss when holidays start and the world is sleeping.
stop interrupting me.

anyway, he went around checking every one's socks if they were by standards. and STOPPED by my seat and asked me to go out of the class.
like, WTF?!
i was like," huh?! is my socks illegal?"
"YES! go out NOW!"
HELLOOOOOOOOO? did i say i didn't want to go out? i was JUST asking you if my socks were illegal! don't start shouting at me for no reason.
so i went out..blurry and can't see...
so the other teacher said,"why are your socks not white in colour?"
me with 'wth are you asking this lame question." look on my face." because the colour faded! it was white before but it turned to grey after years of wearing it."
"then you should change it! when you see it isn't white anymore then change it!"
WTF. i just bought a new shoe so obviously the colour contrast makes it look like my socks are grey. but if compared to other students, it's just about the same colour!
me, dunno what to say back to him after his thoughtless reply. with thoughts of "i didn't know you had no brains in your head" practically in my head.
then the other teacher commanded me to take off my shoes because he wanted to confiscate them.
obviously i didn't. i'm not gonna admit i'm wrong when I KNOW i'm NOT in the wrong. so i demanded for a reason.
he was like," your socks ARE SHORT SOCKS!( direct translation from chinese) take it off NOW!"
so i took it off. he's scary i tell you.
but i said," but obviously it's NOT! does it LOOK like short socks to you?"
yes, airel is annoyed.
"YES IT IS! i don't care!"
and took my shoes and threw it into the plastic bag.
so with my disabled eyesight, i just looked, or tried to look helplessly. watching him throwing my shoes into the plastic bag. and walked away.
yes. airel is OFFICIALLY PISSED.
if it wasn't for my disabled eyesight, i would have NEVER let him confiscate my shoes without a good, logical reason. maybe i'll even throw it outside and see if he wants to catch it himself.
so i came back to class very pissed. and then, i made a resolution. I'LL NEVER TAKE BACK MY SHOES. EVER. if i take them back, it will mean that what he says is right. so he can smell it rot in his office for all i care. AND I WILL ALSO PROVE TO HIM THAT I CAN GET ON WITH LIFE WELL WITH JUST WEARING SOCKS. hah! TAKE THAT!
when i compared my socks with other friends, i found out we had the same colour, or either the same length or some, even shorter than mine. so i was just unlucky to be caught i guess.
so i experienced my first time of walking all over school just with socks today. i tell you, you should try it too! GREAT EXPERIENCE! so i walked to the computer room, school lab, teacher's room and other classes with socks today! isn't it cool? the only thing that is troublesome is when i want to go to the toilet. yeah..not very nice. so i decided to confront him during recess.
rule #1. never lose your temper. always negotiate.
he wasn't in at first so i talked to the female disciplinary teacher.
" teacher, are my socks illegal?"
she looks at my socks. and doesn't answer.
well, OBVIOUSLY she doesn't DARE to answer because they're not illegal after all!
so she said "i don't have the right to say anything so you'll have to wait until he comes back."
LOSER.
so i finally talked to him.
with a really patient and smiley face,"teacher, can you give my shoes back to me?"
"come and take it back after school."
"but teacher, i don't intend of paying to get it back because my socks are not short socks after all."
SMILES at me."your socks are short socks."
"okay, why don't you see it again? measure it for yourself and see if it is."
looks at my socks."actually i have been very lenient already. the rules stats that it should be 15 to 18cm but for me, 13 to 14 cm is also okay. but the thing is, this morning, your socks was less than 13cm."
"no, the length was the same all throughout the day. i didn't purposely make it come down or anything."
looks at my socks again."no. your socks was lower in the morning. you must have put it down."
"why would i want to put it down? perhaps i was walking a lot in the morning so it came down all by itself!" yes. i'm irritated at WHY doesn't he see sense.
but he was persistent in saying that i put it down in the morning. BITCH. you knew you were wrong but didn't want to admit it. scared to lose face huh?
so at the end, i lost in the battle.
SO WHAT?! the really cool thing is Jessie took off her shoes to walk in socks with me today! i was SO touched!=) that was a great support to me girl!

so....yeah! i want to make a statement that i didn't plagiarize for the name of my blog, aireloveshinki26. some people have been saying it seems similar to Nicole's blog but no. my blog name is 100% original. check out my friendster page if you don't believe iy. it's been the same name for years.

airel recommendes: Been So Long - Jaejoong and Yoochun( seriously, check this song out on yt or something. JJ really reached that supeeeeeeeeeer high note!)

* Tachyeon is so sweeeeeeeeeet and friendly!

airel feels emotionally drained.

2009-09-12T04:21:00.007+08:00

okay. what time is it now?
4.23a.m stupid!
ahhhhh..great.

so here we go! shouldn't you feel a sense of accomplishment for me? i mean, after many blog accounts, you name it! Xanga, Myspace, LifeJournal and now.. Blogspot. i finally had the FEEL to open a blog. yes, my very anticipated blog by many is finally made! you know who you are..
after many hours of searching for the right blog skin.. yes i need to say something about this. i was seriously contemplating to put a DBSK one or a personalized one. you see, if i put a DBSK one, it meant i was sorta "proving" to the world that i am a Cassiopeia.
[Cassiopeia- the fanclub of DBSK]
but if i put a personalized one...then i would feel like i am betraying them. stil, in the end, i chose the personalized version. individuality rocks.

i just watched ep1 of Heading to the Ground.
[Heading to the Ground - a drama that Yunho acts in.]
i didn't know it will be this hard to find one that has english subs in it. anyway, the main thing is the comments. i'm pretty surprised that the first episode didn't get high ratings.. you know how cassies are. the 1st episode, in my opinion, wasn't very interesting. Sorry Yunnie! if it wasn't for Yunho, i'll be changing ships already. i wasn't very surprised at how Yunho was acting, the weirdness and all from the character was anticipated earlier. but yes, it's definitely a 360 degrees change from his usual self. AHHHHH LEADERSSHI!!!!!!!!!XD

my soju finally uploaded episodes of My Fair Lady acted by the absolutely stunning Yoon Eun Hye. i have to say, i like this drama better than HTTG at the moment. very girl power! airel likey!

OH YES! Kylin and Jessie, PLEASE read the fanfic i recommended! i'm gonna go all fangirl now. TAERI MUST ABSOLUTELY GO ON! although the part that i anticipated the most has finally arrived - An Soojin kick ass time!, i seriously don't know how taeri will survive this test, it's definitely the biggest test they ever encountered. even if someone could love a person this much, he can never be with someone who murdered his own mother, even if it was her alter ego, or the bad side of her. people forgive but never forget. anyway, i'm SERIOUSLY anticipating the next chapter! Soojin's big entrance( i hope!) and YAAAAH! the queen of the underworld is baaaack! some girl power at last!

i went "researching" on wondergirls after Kylin asked me about them this morning just now. i have to say, i'm VERY surprised. initially i thought they were more on the concept and the catchy song kind of kpop girl group, but i was blown away, like seriously. the first thing that impressed me is Ye eun's english is WOW. not bad at all for a beginner! and the fact that she is such a devoted christian! whoa.. i heard they pray before performing! not bad at all! and then i went to check out their singing. Ye eun and Sunye TOTALLY left me blown away. it just shows how songs like Tell me, Nobody, So hot DOES NOT showcase their vocals. i mean, those two could even sing notes that are seriously high. like, even i couldn't reach them. the same goes to F(x). Luna's vocal skills are AMAZING! check her singing I Have Nothing by Whitney Housten in youtube! and yeah, i guess the 'tomboy' concept in korea is new? seeing the popularity Amber is getting..nevertheless, 2ne1 still stays NO1 in my heart. GIRL POWER MAN! CL YOU ROCK!

Kylin and Jessie have recently been infected by the Bigbang virus.. so they pretty are V.I.Ps now. it's great to see close friends being introduced to Kpop and loving it. the same goes to Jyyi. it seems like her love for SS501 increased 10-folds after attending the fanmeeting...with me!=) cool.. so we can go to korean together to stalk now? ahahaa...although we're most likey be in different places..RIGHT! it's like, Kylin likes TOP; Jyyi likes HJ and i like JJ and YC.. what a coincidence! TOP,HJ,JJ and YC are like beer buddies and Kylin, Jyyi and i are like, cheongk buddies. what a small world indeed!

i was listening to BB songs to prepare myself for tomorrow's girltime at Jessie house when i just felt so sad. the kind of sad that makes you want to cry sort of sad. DBSK is currently not undergoing activities for 2 months because of the court case... and all those disbanding rumours.. seeing JJ and YC promoting Colours on their own just makes me feel like they're really disbanding. plus Yunho acting in HTTG alone.. CM and JS somewhere i dunno where.. i know i shouldn't think this way and just have faith in them but, we're all humans you know? somehow..thoughts come into your mind and just ruin every ounce of faith you've placed in them.
come on airel! are you gonna give up on them now?
no..but..
then trust them! "always keep the faith" remember? DBSK is not one without 5!
okay..YES. i'll NEVER give up on them. EVER. they'll get through this and come back stronger than ever!
YES! and airel..i think you need some sleep. you're starting to think nonsense.
hmmmm..maybe yeah..

i think i should sleep now. otherwise i'll crash tomorrow. hmmm. not good.

airel recommends: Endlessly sweet by DBSK.